So, today I’ve spent the day analyzing and over analyzing my disastrous supposed love life. I seriously have met some “awesome” guys (none of who like me) and “nightmare” guys. I know it ain’t easy out there….but seriously I think there’s a drought of single, working men. Right now I’m crushing on a crush. I feel like something is gonna go super sour if we hook up. Plus I don’t even know if he likes me, like that. And I know I’m not being cool about it because I really can’t control myself. Most interesting dude I’ve met in a long time. Plus it always seems like the ones you really like, never like you. What should I do? Its so easy for me to fall in and out of love, or is that lust? I would like to be in a relationship but its slim pickings out there.
I’m also thinking of a past love, who everyone else would LOVE for us to be together, but we can’t. We are perfect for each other but not in this lifetime. Its like we know each other so well, there’s nothing hidden, and I feel that that’s our downfall. We have seen the worse and best of each other, and its kinda weird, liberating, and judgment free (to some extent). So its also like there’s nothing left. Maybe? Well at this point its also a tad bit too late for us. He’s in a “committed” relationship.
So its on to the next one. As for the crush, I think I’m just gonna let it take its own course. That is until I get the courage to do something about it. I’ve taken that approach before and I feel like men mistake that for “she just wants to have sex.” But that’s so not the case, at least not always. So what to do, what to do?
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